Where to find motivation?

Looking hard at my life. mentally exhausted. what motivation is there for me? have been joining in to post non-sensical comments about the GE, preparing for the upcoming races, nagging alexus to do his studies. I just couldn't get myself to do what is important - do my work, settling my insurance (idiot AIA), settling the maid's issues, i'm loosing grips on these things again! feeling like a drift wood. why didn't the world end on 21 May 2011 as predicted by some fanatics?wish i could dump everything and walk out. wish could just disappear. can't sleep. popping panadols may help. door of temporary happiness is still far away. meanwhile, i think have to work out more vigorously.