Where to find motivation?

Looking hard at my life. mentally exhausted. what motivation is there for me? have been joining in to post non-sensical comments about the GE, preparing for the upcoming races, nagging alexus to do his studies. I just couldn't get myself to do what is important - do my work, settling my insurance (idiot AIA), settling the maid's issues, i'm loosing grips on these things again! feeling like a drift wood. why didn't the world end on 21 May 2011 as predicted by some fanatics?wish i could dump everything and walk out. wish could just disappear. can't sleep. popping panadols may help. door of temporary happiness is still far away. meanwhile, i think have to work out more vigorously.

Bought a Vacuum Cleaner

Bought a new Vacuum Cleaner.... hope no regrets.

Preparation for Sundown 10 km

went to collect my race pack last Fri and then spent $199 on a simple polar heart rate monitor. preparation has begun. however, because i was too lazy to wake up early the last two days, end up doing my jogs at the gym =) at least for today, managed to chalk about 7 km.

Silly Jokes and Tall Tales

so far we have done 4 paper 2. it's wearing me out, but must press on. meanwhile, boy had been telling me about some really silly jokes and tall tales by his friends. we had some good laughs. he even thought of compiling these jokes and stories after his o levels. shall look forward to it =)

Boý's studies

The anxiety over boy's work is eating into me......Can't seem to be able to motivate boy, well at least I went through 2 papers with him since yesterday. But it is so exhausting having to fuss over his studies and taking care of all the other stuff like bills, etc. And Alyssa is so attention seeking - while I spent time with boy, she would find ways an means to whine and distract me. I should have started earlier and be firmer with boy.

HIGH SPIRIT

First of all, the week started well with good news that Richard will be getting his promotion.That was enough to keep me high spirited for the entire week, and beyond. Savier is finally promoted too, and that would help boost his ego.

Work and home issues were tiring, but I think the good news had kept me going.

Savier was no where to be seen on Saturday morning even though he wasn't working. I was told he left at 5:30 am. I continued with my medical screening anyway. Saturday was spent nagging at the kids, and then rush around shuttling between T3, Tampines and Pasir Ris. In the evening, he told me he'll be spending the night at JB. So be it. Boy will be happy. Feeling upset would only sap my energy. Come Sunday, I'll have to send Alyssa for dance audition at Marine Parade. Will I meet TLP there?

Looking forward to the Sundown 10km, and clearing my IPPT in June. But I am abit worried about boy's exams. Like PAP, I must also think of ways to engage him

HMD

After staying up the whole night watching the GE2011, i travelled to T3 RMG for medical check-up. Unfortunately I couldn't proceed with it cos there's no collection of blood samples. Urrrgh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. Nvm. I roamed around for a while and went to get some skin care products. There are some new range which i wanted to try... like ppl attracted to Nicole Seah.... but must choose carefully. It's Mothers'Day and when I got home, I had a little surprise ::::::Alexus presented me with a piece of cheese cake worth !!!!$5.50!!!!!! Ate it with coffee - yummay. Alyssa gave me a flower and a self-made card expressing her love and appreciation.