OUCH!

Feel like my heart had just been pinched, bruised, crushed and stepped on.

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I should stop taking things / ppl / issues too seriously or risk getting hurt when being played out. But when it comes to work, better do it properly.

Do not be derailed

It's happening again. This time, he informed me just a few seconds before he drove to M'sia in the early morning. He probably wouldn't be bothered to tell me when he'd be back if I hadn't asked. He had done this before, but I couldn't help feeling disheartened each time. I did not kick up any fuss. Sometimes, I wish he would just walk out on us forever. Sometimes, I wish he could just do something so that I have incriminating evidence against him. Meanwhile, I must not be derailed, don't fret, don't shed tears - I must stay focused. I have to take care of my rice bowl.

Attended some ceremony

Went for a ceremony witnessing two guys signing on some documents. It was boring, yet stirred up a little emotion in me as I recollect memories of a similar ceremony that happened 14 years ago. 1997 - It was the first time we had such a event. I had to grope in the dark to get it done. It was stressful, and I felt no sense of achievement but betrayal. Maybe that was because I didnt know how to handle the politics. That explained why I was so vexed prior to the event. After witnessin the ceremony today, I was exhausted - more emotionally than physically. Richard was very thoughtful to have driven to YCK to fetch me to the dinner with my colleagues. The dinner helped a great deal, though abit uneasy.

Negative Vibes

Why am I having so much negative vibes? Need to detox. My mileage had dropped to about 10 km last week. Got to resume the intensity.

Totally Flabbergasted

OMG, there some lousy and useless meetings lined up in the coming week. And I have to scramble to get a set of fitting garment - I was totally flabbergasted when I looked closer at my "tailored" pants and discovered how ill-fitting they looked on me. As an act of desperation, I sent them for alteration - but that would take a few days. Meanwhile, I have to make do with the existing ones. Sigh! Hope they'll be on time for the important time waster on 22 March.

Boring Sunday Morning

Feeling quite stupid having to sit through the boring programme at the Stadium on a Sunday Morning. But this is a necessity in our line of work. Alyssa was there with me, and she was (or both were) totally drained upon returning home. Having said that, credit should go to those in the working com as they had to slog harder to get the event going. I was glad to be able to bring Sausage Mac Muffins for my colleagues. At least I did something for them. As for Alyssa, even though she was tired, she felt happy to have come with me, and also saw Uncle Richard (though she seemed kind of reserved today). She's so sweet.